Last night was utterly brilliant. Good company, good conversations… and free, good quality wool. A visiting sister of one of our regulars had brought a box of wool to give away, and I made with the grabby hands. I was positive there were more skeins of the wool on the top, but I can’t see any. Maybe she nicked a few of them back. If she did, she did; I was charmed by our visitor’s weird. And in the interim, my brain is gonna keep making me search and re-search the square foot of room where the bag was resting, ha ha. *doinks brain*
West of Loathing launched today, which has left me feeling a bit… well. I don’t know. I won’t be purchasing it anytime soon, though I’m sure I will at some point down the road. I’m still upset that my dearest member on staff was forced out; it made me not want to support anything by the Asymmetric team anymore. And then, of course, it made me think about how much I miss Skully and hanging out with him at meets, and all the platonic goodness that we shared. Seeing him and Jezerfly would rock. Actually getting to introduce our respective children to each other would be amazing. I’ve joked that Smalls has to marry their oldest, who has a year of age on her. I know there is a good chance that we’ll either never actually get to see each other again, or it will be once the children are grown up. Who knows. At least we had those good years of meets and community and the family it all was for those years, even if we’ve all drifted.
And, if I’m honest, I continue to feel adrift online. I miss having a community to call home… but nothing else has called like that game, or the fandom-that-shall-not-be-named. Even with good local friends, I guess it’s just one of those things that has carried me through bad times and good. Maybe someday again something will fill that gap, but until then… *shrugs*
But really, I’m fine on the whole. I’m just sort of cheerfully vegged out right now, enjoying the (likely momentary) silence that rules downstairs while Z reads the girls a bedtime story. I’ve done a bit on my knitting and hope to get a bit more done. If I zone out in games instead, it’s just as good. It’s all about some semblance of relaxing, right? 🙂